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Thursday, May 24, 2012

MY NEW BEGINNING Half Way up the Ladder

Hello i started this blog because i have allot to say and well facebook was not the best place to speak my mind. as you may know im an Actor.Stuntman,Musician,singer,dancer. im in the entertainment biz.
I do allot of commercials. Mostly i have been playing really ugly people. ya see im a character actor.

More on that later. I just returned form a 10 day 2800 mile trip around the west coast  Arizona Nevada. to see my family. everyone is getting older and well ya know i want to see them before people start to drop.

I was getting caught up on my online stuff and on face book found out that a friend of 20 years ERIC J Swanson Died of a heart attack alone in his house in Big Bear Ca. Eric couldn't have been older than 49 or 50. of course im shocked. he was good to me at a time when i first started in acting. when i was homeless i parked my van by his house  and he let me shower there. it was in Venice ca. back in the 90's  he was a good Man he Was a Cinematographer. he shot the film i did Kiss the girls goodbye. a non union film but we spent allot of time together. he went up to no California one summer with me and my Father on the last gold dredging excursion  me and my father shared before he passed.  over the last 20 years we have stayed in contact we shared life together and he was a very kind man and Friend.

It has Scared me. to be honest. ya see i will turn 50 on June 7 2012.
and well i have been a Smoker my whole life.
it makes you stop and think?? its been on my mind allot. my mortality. how much time do i have left?
30 years? 20? 10? tomorrow?
Im an Actor I am blessed I work often. yet i can work harder and run my business better.
Like most everyone else I am afraid.
Afraid of being nothing.
Afraid of being something.
here you will get my raw truth. my feelings and thoughts. what i am doing day to day in my business and in my life. Some will not like what i say and or do. but i am going to be me. I am going to Re Dedicate myself to myself. and get my healthy thing going and do my best in my business, heart, relationships and my life. each night i will post what happened that day. some things i have to be vague about sometimes i have to sign NDA or non disclosure agreements while a project is in production but i will reveal it as soon as i am able.

Hello I am Frankie Ray. im an Actor in the Entertainment business.
And i am CLIMBING THE HOLLYWOOD LADDER. so far its been quite a ride. i hope you enjoy my journey. i am determined to kick it into high gear.  my time is running out and i have a way to go in my Climbe Up this Hollywood Ladder.

P.S. i know i need therapy but i refuse.
Fr

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